I never imagined that I would be writing this letter to you a few years back. In my heart I knew that this day would come when I will eventually tell you how I feel towards you. I’m thankful for this rare chance that I have now. When I was growing up, I always wondered whenever I visited my friends’ house, why their moms were not there at home. I only get to see their moms when we work on our school projects late at night. That’s why when I’m there at their house, we usually end up having our food delivered or we are left with no choice but to cook our own snacks.
I can’t forget one time when we ran out of paint for our science project that was due the next day, we had to wait for my friend’s mom to come home from work so that we can go to the store to buy our much needed materials. We weren’t able to sleep that night but luckily, we got a perfect score for that project! I often hear Ana, one of my best friends tell me that she longs to talk to her mom at the end of the day, just to tell her how school was or even just to ask her if the dress she’s going to wear this weekend looks good on her.
Sadly, she thinks that everyone’s in a hurry at home, especially her mom, who’s just busy when she’s at home, that she doesn’t mind bothering her tired mom. She told me, “I just wish I can just be with her more”. Mom, I can’t imagine having to go through the same thing as my friends. It’s because it was different with you.
You were a constant figure in our home day in and day out. From the moment I wake up, I see you preparing our breakfast, while you catch your breath as you enumerate your daily reminders for Dad, Mike and me.
If I remember it right, it goes something like: “Dad, your vitamins. Don’t forget to put your lunch inside your office ref once you get there. Mike, don’t forget to drink water every now and then. Finish your bacon please. Daughter, please eat your food. Eating junk isn’t good for you, promise me okay? Tonight’s dinner is pasta. “
However, we hurriedly ate breakfast, oftentimes, forgetting to say thank you for fixing everything for us. Thank you Mom for all the things you have done for us. It’s only now that I’m realizing that the moment we leave the house, I go on with my busy day, forgetting you, while you are caught up with endless household chores and errands. No matter how untidy I left my room or left my plate unwashed in the kitchen, I always came home to a house that was clean and relaxing. I will always have great memories of our home, and it was all because of you.
Do you know Mom that my classmates always wanted to have our school projects done at our house? They tell me that for sure they won’t get hungry because you’re such a great cook and you bake the best cookies! Do you know also Mom that they tell me that I have the coolest Mom because apparently you know who’s in and who’s out in the showbiz scene? And most of all, they liked that you always accompanied us whenever we wanted to visit the mall, watch a movie or try a new restaurant.
Mom, let me confess to you that there were times when I wasn’t proud that you were a full-time housewife. I envied my friends whose moms worked at big corporations or who often traveled abroad for work. I heard them brag about how they get really nice and expensive presents whenever their moms come home from work or travel. There were times when I wished you were like them too mom, so that I can also get those nice gifts.
I’m sorry Mom, I’m sorry that I was too selfish and too materialistic. I’m sorry that I didn’t recognize how blessed I was to have a mom who was always there whenever I needed someone to help me, no matter how trivial it was. You were someone I can run to at any time of the day, when I felt down, discouraged or sad. You never failed to stop whatever you are doing at home, just to give me a hug at the end of the day. I knew how tired your hands and body are because of the mess that we often leave at home, or how you needed a few more hours of sleep each day because you always had to wake up a little earlier than everyone, but your smile simply conveyed a sense of contentment and fulfillment.
With you Mom, I always felt safe and accepted. You made me realize that your presence mattered more than the presents. You are probably wondering why I am just saying this now. I have fgrown a little bit older, and probably, a little wiser as well. I didn’t realize this before, but had I understood before, I would have said thank you and I love you more often to you. If I realized how your commitment as a full-time mom is a serious business, then I would have made it a lot easier for you.
Mom, I can’t do anything about the past but I know that we both have years ahead to spend together. I promise you that I’ll make it worthwhile for you. Now that I’m working already, I’ll make sure to be more responsible especially at home. Eventually, I’ll have my own family too and be a mom, as well. I want you to know that you’ll be my one and only model of how be mom because you are the person who knows best loving a family.
I look forward to learning the best secrets of keeping a home and family from you. If I didn’t get to say this before, I want to say it now, I’m proud of you, I’m proud of how you fully dedicated your life to our home and family. You are the most selfless person I know. You have the best career in the world. :)
Thank you Mom. I love you!
Your soon-to-be working daughter